I feel like I'm on something (which I've never really been, by the way, I just imagine this is the way it feels). My heart palpitates, my palms get clammy. My breath comes in short bursts, and I sit, poised over the keyboard, preparing to hit "send."
Yes, submitting is like a drug. Querying has the same effect, but not as extreme. I don't know what it is about it that makes me feel so weird. Could be that I feel like I'm putting my life (and life's work) in someone else's hands. Could be simple nerves. Whatever it is, I'm starting to like the feeling.
That's kind of scary. I know I come from a line of addictive personalities, so I've never let myself do much that could lead to an addiction. I drink rarely, I've never done drugs, and I won't let myself gamble. But querying and submitting? If I want my book out there, I don't have much of a choice. And I do want my book published. I really, really do. So I'll keep querying, and I'll keep submitting.
And I'll keep feeling the rush.